So I had an awesome day today! Don't know really what made it so wonderful, other than I went into it thinking, it's going to be an awesome day. It really was!
I have a fantastic job, could not be more blessed to be where I'm at, with the people I'm with and a super terrific boss! Coming home today was the icing on the cake. My boys, crazy like always, but we had a lot of fun tonight.
So with all that said, I'm laying in bed and I can't sleep. Why?? Because my heart is so heavy. I have lost people in my life without getting to tell them what they mean to me, and how they impacted my life. I have moved on and learned from this. It did however take me YEARS to do so.
My heart is not heavy because of the people I have already lost form this world, but because I have people that are still here, and I don't know if they know how I feel. Everyday could be the last day, for any of us. Is there something you should or need to say to someone, before it's to late? Before you can't say it? I'm so sad to say there is for me. It is, however, easier to give advice than to take your own advice. I have laid awake in bed, night after night, tossing and turning (not every night), because of this for a number of years. The only way I know how to fix it is to talk to these people and tell them how I feel.
This is where the problem lies. I just really don't know how to get started. For some people in my life it's been so easy to tell them exactly how I feel about them and what they mean to me, no problem. I can usually always find words for anything. But I literally don't have any idea of how to go about this with other people in my life.
But, the time has come, I have to resolve this. I can't wait to do it anymore, because like I said before, you just never know what tomorrow holds. So I pray for strength, words, and open ears. Onward with optimism!
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